As some of you will know, I have been a bit cautious as to doing a meditation to meet my spirit guide, although I have a very good idea that he is NI called Red Cloud. Normally when I meditate, I just sit in silence and try to calm my mind and thoughts and regulate my breathing. I have tried a cd to find my inner angel, which was very positive and worked! I also tried flowdreaming which again was very positive and I had a lovely image of what I hope is a part of my future.
This morning I sat down with Tony Stockwell's guided meditation CD to meet your spirit guide. I was really up for it and sat down with great expectation and excitement. But I had real trouble visualising the images that Tony was talking about. Finally I think I am onto it, and he talks about imagining hands taking yours and leading you up through and out of your house and looking down on the house and street etc. Well, I had a sudden thought - how am I going to get through the roof! I then found myself stuck half way through the roof, with these unseen hands trying to pull me through. Not a very good start. It was so hard to catch up with everything then, and when he reached the part about meeting your spirit guide, I was just in floods of tears as I couldn't see or feel anything.
I then sat down and to calm myself I drew a picture of an odd shaped tree, a teepee with odd symbols on it, none that I could decipher, with a cooking fire next to it and mountains and a river behind and something that looked like an eagle. I don't think I was guided to draw this, it was just my way of compensating myself for not getting what I wanted from the meditation!!
I will definately be trying again! I notice on here there are some exercises on breathing to do before trying meditation, so I will be looking at those. Maybe give it a couple of days.
I feel drawn to the outside and nature today. The sun is shining so maybe some time with nature will help restore my imagination and help me to relax!
Thanks for listening to me. Lyn xx